Indefinite, Indescribable, and then Complicated Relationship

It was yesterday when friends of my brother visited us. They were excited to meeting my mom as she was known as a Tarot reader. Despite the result from Tarot reading, I was interested to share more about relationship inspired by their stories. (of course love story is still being the most unclear thing that persons would die to know the answer).

When we fall for someone we really want to live with and the universe do not conspires to get that “wanted man” instead of suggesting others whom we might not really interested in. *sigh.

Before I finally decided to get married, my husband is not my 100% type of the guy I want to live with. There is this guy I’ve once dated, I call him my guidance whose his presence is my savior to face this life as he is so mature, settle, understand my problems, knows how to cheer me up, nice person to talk and to laugh with, same interest with everything I like … but then the universe speak different.

Then I realize that it is not the way we perceive our lifetime friends vs. our part time partner. When I can not push the universe to fulfill everything I want but to accept that no matter what happen as my wish or not is the thing I might need but I just about not yet to understand.

My husband? Oh of course he is finally the one I can accept and being grateful of his presence teach me a lot about life and love. He is just more than what I want. He teach me to share a life, to accept myself, to trust, to embrace sincere love, to live simply, and to appreciate myself that I deserve to be loved, the most important thing is that he is to one who fight for me and for us being together.

So there is no indefinite, indescribable, yet complicated relationship. It’s just persons we must fortunately meet to understand life more and further more. In life we just learn that some stay, some aren’t, some teach us to let go, some teach us to appreciate present of life. Just let’s walk .. worry nothing and things will be just fine . Have faith that things will work out, maybe not how you planned but just how it’s meant to be.

Ps: in life, I’ve dated more than 15 guys. Some are quite serious, some are fun, some are me being reckless. But then in time I didn’t bother myself being single and planning to hit “Bank Sperm” *hahahah … The universe had another beautiful plan of me meeting my husband … The one I will spend the rest of my life to understand why I need this guy *hihihihi …